worms for the the new year

the past few days had me nearly hyperventilating. the cause? barely 15minutes after opening my pc, the whole thing would freeze. new processes, folders would refuse to open and the thing just won't properly shut down. i really thought Lappy the pc is giving out on me or has some serious memory problems which i'd be helpless against since:

a.) i didn't bring my installers and drivers here (stupid!)
b.) i wouldn't know how to ask them japanese computer guys to fix my pc problem, and even if i could ask our Japanese school person to help me --
c.) i don't think they'd be too happy to help me fix Lappy, since well, I'm kinda using a pirated program

so like a lover spurned, i was walking around for days worried sick in a state of panic and melodrama. hindi makatulog, hindi makakain, hindi ma-feel ang Happy New Year.

but yay, after a few sleepless nights and bugging the boyfriend to help, finally weeded out what's been causing Lappy's diminished health -- a few worms and 2 viruses. (okay, isa pang stupid move - not having any antivirus programs while brazenly downloading/watching countless TV shows).

which brings me to the point i'd like to make, i really am internet depedent here. it's my social life. my getaway. my version of SM North Edsa here in Fukui. the internet holds one of the key to my staying powers here -- as long as i can talk to my friends online (ym), get updated with some of the more important things going on in their lives, I'll be fine.

hence, the thought that if Lappy dies, being alone and friendless here would become too unbearable. i'd be too miserable. and i'd probably resort to these two desperate options:

a.) pack my bags and leave for home, quick! but well, i can't really do that now since airfares are too expensive because of the holidays. i'd have to wait until february til they're normal again. february? that's a whole month of being internet-less, multiply-less at home. nah, that's way too long.
b.) acquire a new laptop. pero wala pakong budget. *sniff. it'd mean being in debt for a while. which would mean being morally obliged to stay here longer to pay off the new laptop cost. (and i soooo wanna go home!)

so ayun. buti na lang happy ending. well, not quite. i still have to end (a few) processes everytime i log on. but at least now i get a bit of my internet life back. and i can sleep and eat normally again. allow me to say this though: (in jologs arm-raising, finger-pointing mode) SH*T NYO, WORMS, VIRUSES, TROJANS! PH*KYO, y'all! INTERNETSCUMS *^^$%#*^#&^@&* %#*^#&^!

HAPPY NEW YEAR to EVERYONE! :)

liars go to hell

nyel: gusto ko nang umuwi

che_limjoco: aaaw

che_limjoco: oks lang yan

che_limjoco: mainit dito

che_limjoco:

nyel: mas gusto ko yun! alien ang lamig

nyel: galing akong xmas party tas ok naman, got to hang out w/ students and they were an okay bunch. it's just that they're not people from home

che_limjoco: haha, i know what you mean.. somehow

nyel: nice sila pero alien e.

che_limjoco: hahahha

che_limjoco: minsan naman kahit dito madaming alien e

nyel: tsaka, well, ang "palabas" ng school namin, taga-chicago ako!

nyel: (taas-kilay smiley)

che_limjoco: (laugh-trip smiley)

nyel: totoo! may ganung eklat na kunwari "native speaker" ako. kaya siguro hindi rin ako comfy about sharing too much (w/ the students). ang hirap magsinungaling at gumagawa-gawa ng mga kwento, potah.

nyel: hindi ako consistent. nakakainis.

che_limjoco: (laugh-trip smiley)

che_limjoco: soooo funny

nyel: oo, nakatawa talaga! to think kahit kuko ko hindi pa nga nakakatapak sa Chicago!

che_limjoco: "oh yeah, i lived in chicago for 3 years.. oh, was it 4?"

nyel: actually, hindi lang 3 or 4… 20!

nyel: wah. i hate lying about it. how can you consistently lie about a nonexistent 20-year life?!

che_limjoco: (laughtrip smiley –kanina pa sya tumatawa, at this point masakit na ang tiyan nya)

che_limjoco: omg!

che_limjoco: 20 years??

che_limjoco: so talagang dun ka lumaki, ganun?

nyel: oo, kunwari.

che_limjoco: hahahha

nyel: as in, mare.

che_limjoco: pagbalik mo dito, pathological liar ka na

nyel: ayoko ngang tinatanong ako about my “life in Chicago”

che_limjoco: sabihin mo na lang you don't want to talk about it. coz you don't like your past. like may family issues ek

nyel: true. hindi talaga ako consistent– like dati, ang press release ko, dun ako pinanganak. pero masyadong malaking kasinungalingan kaya pag may bagong nagtatanong, sinasabi ko na lang, nag-“migrate” kami dun when I was 3.

nyel: well, i do say i came back to the Philippines 2 years ago.

che_limjoco: which makes you more in tune with reality

che_limjoco: hahhahaha

nyel: so most of the time i just focus on my wonderful life in the Philippines.

che_limjoco: ye ye, ganun nga!

nyel: feeling ko nga nag-su-suspetsa na yung iba na taga-Pilipinas talaga ako

nyel: (which somehow makes me feel worse because i really don't wanna lie about it)

che_limjoco: hhahahahahaahhaa

che_limjoco: tangina. riot yan!

nyel: i don't really care if they find out what’s true.

nyel: like, yung school naman yung may idea na magsinungaling ako about it.

che_limjoco: hahahah

nyel: so yun, gusto ko nang umuwi.

che_limjoco: hihi

che_limjoco: medyo mahirap nga yun

che_limjoco: pero nakakatawa

nyel: oo, no. at hindi pa yan ang punchline.

che_limjoco: omg! hahahha

che_limjoco: ano???

nyel: apparently, they can't pronounce "maniel"(it'll sound like a twisted version of "manueru"). so I go by my 2^nd name -- "Grace".

che_limjoco: (intense laugh-trip smiley)

nyel: (flashes the loser smiley – for myself)

che_limjoco: rotfl!!!

nyel: ok.instead of letting you just laugh at me, i'll laugh with you now. (tawa, tawa)

che_limjoco: hindi ko alam yan ah. matagal na yan??

nyel: um. since october.

che_limjoco: waaaaaaaaaaaaaahaahahahahhahahha

nyel: tangena, 1 year of this? shet.

che_limjoco: natatawa talaga ako mag-isa, PRAMIS!

nyel: promise raich, ns-stress akong mag-tahi-tahi ng mga kwento.

che_limjoco: sorry ha, hindi ako makaempathize ng maayos, ang hilarious kase

che_limjoco: hahahhahah

nyel: oo, nakakatawa naman talaga e. hindi ko nga makwento dati kasi eto yung tipo ng dilemma na nakakahiya na nakakatawa na nakakaungkot.

che_limjoco: naalala ko hindi ako pumasa sa UPCAT kasi quota course kinuha koi didn't pass by 0.03 points.

nyel: ay potah, sayang!

che_limjoco: inoffer sa akin, creative writing. sabi ko sa sarili ko, magaling na ko magsinungaling, i don't need a degree for it

nyel: (tawa, tawa) bat di mo kinuha?

che_limjoco: e kasi feeling ko ganyan mangyayari sa ken YAN mismong nangyayari sayo.may tendency ako maging schitzo e

Grace Rafael: anubahahahahaa. lost. hindi ko magagap pati tamang emosyon.

che_limjoco: hahahahha

che_limjoco: ANUNG MAGAGAP?? hahahahhaha tanginang tagalog yan

che_limjoco: TAGA PILIPINAS KA NGA!

nyel: hahaha. taga-quezon lang.

nyel: gagap = fathom

nyel: so my canadian co-teacher must think I’m this antisocial colleague

che_limjoco: hahahhahaha

che_limjoco: whut-evaaah!

nyel: che. heheheheh

che_limjoco: hehehehheheh

che_limjoco: sobrang napatawa mo ko hahhahaha

che_limjoco: relak-relak ka lang... isipin mo na lang, it;s the best opp to reinvent yourself

che_limjoco: magagawa mo yung mga gusto mong gawin, etc.

che_limjoco: hirap lang baguhin ang kwento ng past

nyel: true. anyway ayun.

che_limjoco: hahaahah

nyel: actually, korek ka. hindi naman sya depressing. pathetic lang. (taas-kilay smiley)

che_limjoco: tanginang smiley yan hahahahha

The Purplechickens launch Girls, Et Cetera

And it's going to be a brilliant album, so do drop by. December 13, 9pm at Club Dredd Eastwood. Imago, Duster, and the Lowtechs will also perform.

panahon ng hinagpis

galing sa blog ni Liam:

Prof. Monico Atienza also passed away this afternoon.

Hindi ako makahinga. Nakakapanghina. Nung freshie palang ako, si Sir Monico ang isa sa mga unang propesor na nakasalamuha ko sa KAL. Kailangan kong gumawa ng paper nun para sa KAS at may nagturo sakin ng kwarto nya. Interbyuhin ko daw tungkol sa First Quarter Storm. Wala pa talaga akong masyadong alam nun tungkol sa mass activism o SR movement. Para talaga akong tanga habang matiyaga akong pinaliliwanagan ni Sir Monico. Hindi ko na masyadong maalala kung ano yung mga eksaktong sinabi o kinuwento nya sa akin, pero natatandaan ko kung gaano ka-impassioned ang Propesor habang nagbabahagi ng partisipasyon nya; partisipasyon nila.

Medyo maswerte pala ako nun kasi natsambahan kong good mood sya. Sa pagdaan ng panahon, malalaman kong may "moods" pala ang Sir Monico. Pero nasa moda man syang nagsusungit, hindi nakakalimot ang butihing matanda na mangamusta. Hindi rin sya nagsasawang magpaliwanag. Isa si Sir Monico sa pinakamagaling at pinakamabuting guro na nakilala ko.

Hindi man lang ako makakapunta sa burol nya. :(

Nasan man sya ngayon, may he rest in peace.