Friday, August 22, 2008

let the countdown begin

I've been away for more than 9 months. Grabe, miss ko na LAHAT ng pwedeng mamiss -- traffic, streets/highways with no sense of order, crazy packed malls, laughterlaughterlaughter, gigs(!), beer, bumming around with ghastly expensive cups of coffee, KYUSI, cubao, makati, manila, arguing, UP, sisig, isaw, church, FRIENDS(mine checo anji trixie jess avie laya frannie yayo randel ian ian manoxchix rom grace paul manoxboys gwen etcetcetc!!!), OYEKS, Marco and the Harders.

Shet, hindi nako makapagantay. thue-ni-wahn days tah ghooOo!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

fear

You know how some people live with the fear that one day they’d wake up realizing that they’ve fallen out of love with someone? That when that finally happens, they would know what a terrible thing it is their mind has done. Maybe part of them would lament the loss, they'd feel betrayed, but no matter how sincerely sorrowful they are, there is nothing they could do to bring back what has slipped away and all they’re left with is a feeling of helplessness.

I grapple with a similar fear. But my version is that one day I would wake up and I would forget my father: how his voice sounds like, how his eyes could carry so much amusement, wisdom, and intensity, the shape of his brown glasses, the clothes he used to wear - a shirt with a side pocket, brown, gray, or blue slacks, the way he walked, and how kindly he spoke towards me and other people.

Truth is, I’ve forgotten most of his jokes. All I remember is that he used to make me laugh, but I can't recall how. So I’m scared that in this state of slow deterioration, one day all his memories would disappear. That he would fade and become just a tiny, optional footnote.

My mind could erase him in many different ways. Like, one day, maybe it would refuse to echo back to me the way Papa used to say my name or his peculiar way of pronouncing, “hambur-ger.” And, in an act of betrayal, I would stop holding on to the last lingering look he gave - me in a telephone booth decked in stupid adolescent rebellion, while he was outside, gazing at me in his blue hospital robe with a look that encapsulated the saddest and yet most hopeful gaze he alone could probably give me in this lifetime.

I'm scared that as I go on with my life, as I become wrapped up in my responsibilities as an adult and as I take on new roles, my memories of him would suffer in the process. That eventually the daughter in me would die so it could give way to another person. Someone more whole; someone lighter, someone less fragmented.

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

when you can't decide, consult the tarot

keywords: going home crossroads staying leaving
Three of Wands in the "Self" Position

Main (positional) Meaning:
You are prepared to take risks to explore new opportunities or enterprises.

The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now.

When the Three of Wands is in this position an adventure is about to be set in motion. This card represents the burning drive that compels a person to risk his or her worldly fortunes for a chance at greatness. Committed to a plan of action, you have gathered resources and designed the step by step procedure.

An enterprising spirit inspires you to strike out in this new direction rather than stay with the status quo. Now you can confidently set out on this journey of exploration and hopefully, enrichment.

The Magician in the "Situation" Position

Main (positional) Meaning:
Allow genius to operate in this situation and creative solutions are sure to arise.

The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time.

Allow imagination and originality to operate in this situation and creative solutions are sure to arise. People become less judgmental in a stimulating atmosphere.

This is a good time to become involved with a person of genius who can intuitively transform chaos into a higher order. The situation at hand provides fertile ground for unorthodox approaches. It looks like it's going to be a fun ride.

The Lovers
in the "Challenges/ Opportunities" Position

Main (positional) Meaning:
Opposites can be brought into harmony.

The card that lands in the Challenges/Opportunities position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

The Lovers challenge you to distill the best from seeming opposites and create a new mixture. Rather than thinking of them as opposing each other, consider these two elements as right and left hands.

Harmonize these opposites and you will heal a rift that will greatly expand your awareness. If you pit one side against the other, however, you will slide back into unconsciousness. Share whatever you learn from this experience.
***

So in this current situation, what is the status quo? What is the "unorthodox decision"? And how do I harmonize the opposites? *bangs head against the wall* I wish I could have more obvious answers, even though I know in the end, my decision would prevail. I'm just not sure if they're always the wisest/right one.

Any thoughts, closet tarot-lovers?

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

RU Listening?

Yes, I am. And you should, too! Catch The Purplechickens and band friend, Ang Bandang Shirley, perform at the "RU Listening Tour" on JULY 25 at 6Underground on Pearl Drive.

(Plus, plus The Wuds and UpDharmaDown will also be there. Seriously, may mas masaya + sulit pa bang gimik dito?)

Entrance at P50 with free flowing vodka? Hello???

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Continue voting and requesting for "Girl of Frost" by texting MSGRJURGirl of Frost by The Purplechickens to 2959.

(reposting this from armycraeg)

Monday, July 14, 2008

I’ve got romance on the brain and it starts with the letter P

(An overdue music meme from no1fan)

1. (The) Path of the Wind (piano version)

From the anime Totoro. Like Cat-bus and Totoro, this composition is a bottomless pit of calm and cheer. It saw me through numerous frustrations + bouts of homesickness late last year and unfailingly took care of me. In a nutshell, it’s a companion P: pantawid-lungkot.

2. Piazza, New York Catcher

I’ve never been big on weddings but always did think eloping is romantic. I love the mix of naiveté and cynicism present in this song. To me, it’s about 2 people doing something possibly scandalous, and they do it not in the (abused) name of love but for the promise of adventure.

Elope with me, Miss Private, and we’ll sail around the world
I will be your Ferdinand and you my wayward girl
How many nights of talking in hotel rooms can you take?
How many nights of limping around on pagan holidays?
Oh, elope with me in private and we’ll set something ablaze
A trail for the devil to erase

(…)

I love you, I’ve a drowning grip on your adoring face
I love you, my responsibility has found a place

(…)

I wish that you were here with me to pass the dull weekend
I know it wouldn’t come to love, my heroine pretend
(...)

Meet you at the statue in an hour

3. Para sa Masa (The Eraserheads)

Naalala nyo pa ba?

Binigyan namin kayo ng ligaya.

In the post-Eheads breakup years, this song has always struck me as an impending goodbye song. In it I hear the band struggling to bring back to the consciousness of the audience how they were once significant to their lives. It’s like a song about an affair that’s on the verge of ending because the parties no longer held the same priorities, no longer cared for the same things, or one of them chose to change. The chords and lyrics contain immeasurable frustration, disappointment, sadness.

Now I hear they’re reuniting in a concert touted to be legendary. Admittedly, I’m bummed because there’s really no way I’d be able to go. I think of all the years I fervently wished they’d play just one set, just one secret surprise gig and now it’s happening! Just great, it’s on the year I’m not home. I do hope that when the four of them share the stage again, they’ll do so sans any tinge of animosity because it’s not just about hearing the old songs being played and sung by the original lineup. You know what would really make the day legendary is if we see them sincerely enjoying playing together again.

(Another thing, I hope the buzz about Marlboro being the company behind this “legendary” event turns out to be just a legend.)

4. Paperbag (Fiona Apple)

Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love.

Because no one has to endure something so pointless.

5. (The) Perfect Love Song (The Divine Comedy)

This is love whistle sent through YM and serves as a reminder that though I may not be the best gambler there is, there's that one lucky day I did manage to score the jackpot.

Give

Me your love
And I'll give you
The perfect lovesong.
With a divine Beatles bassline
And a big old Beach Boys sound.
I'll match you pound for pound.
Like heavy-weights in the final round
,
We'll hold on to each other
So we don't fall down.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

aug 30

excuse me while i weep.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Sugarcane

I will never forget the 1st time I tasted this humble drink. It was sometime in the 80s in a little hole-in-the-wall FujiFilm shop in Ongpin St. in Chinatown, Manila.

My Dad and I were traversing our regular route. From Zacateros St., we would walk along Alonzo then Ongpin St., passing through numerous hardware shops, pipe and tube stores, pet shops and a fire station until we reach Sta. Cruz. The distance usually takes about 30 minutes on foot. While walking, I would be gawking at the very Chinese-looking people manning the stores, marveling at the cacophony of their rapid Fookien and wondering what they were saying. From time to time, to the tune of my Daddy saying “Jump!” my legs hefty with kiddie muscles would manage to make big leaps to avoid tripping on the logs being unloaded to the various hardware stores. I endured that section of the mercantile street on foot only because next to it came my favorite part: the traders who specialized in pipes and faucets! As we passed by the pipe shops, I would gleefully stretch out one of my bony arms to feel the strong and cold force of the water gushing from the shiny pipes and faucets. And then, after walking some more, I would beg my old man to carry me again. In the chaotic district that was 80s-era Chinatown, being cradled by my Dad’s arms made everything feel safe.

Aside from begging him to carry me, I would also usually complain of thirst. That day, my Dad didn’t immediately stop to get me a drink. He told me to wait. Whether I was actually thirsty then or just looking for an excuse to drink Coca Cola or ice water escapes me now, but that warm day, I think I bugged him twice or thrice more than the usual, not understanding why I was being made to endure the thirst.

Clearly, my Dad had something planned. Somewhere along the walk from Zacateros to Ongpin, he must have thought the time was just ripe to let his daughter have her first sip of sugarcane.

The store that sold sugarcane lay somewhere near the Ongpin arch, just a few blocks after the fire station, and a few meters away from where we would wait for jeepneys that would bring us to Quiapo, then home to Munoz. We usually bought stuff there before or after the walk to/from Zacateros - like a pack of Hi-C juice, a plastic pouch of Coke or some cigs for my father. Of the numerous times I accompanied my Dad to his office, the two of us mostly ignored those stacks of cut sugarcane pipes. From time to time, I would wonder to myself what those cut bamboo-like shoots were used for or how the yellow-greenish juice tasted like. Sometimes I’d even sneakily touch the dried sugarcane, but I never really got curious enough to bug my father to let me try it.

For all the ingenuity of being the only store to sell sugarcane juice and sugarcane in that busy and hectic street, the little FujiFilm shop lacked any aggressive signage promoting their unique product. Instead of screaming banners, they just put out a sign written on the back of an empty cigarette carton pack that said, “Sugarcane, S - P 2.50, M - 5.00, L - P 10.00.” From what I remember, their major trade was the selling and developing of film rolls, while specializing in a bevy of other rakets. And the well-used up space reflected these concerns. Walls lined with photos of That’s Entertainment stars, shelves filled with stacks of batteries and films of different brands, types and ISOs took up about two-thirds of the space. The remaining third crammed a mini sari-sari, where a pedestrian can buy candies, like Stork, Snowbear (?),White Rabbit (the kind imported from China), some cigarettes, as well as a variety of other refreshments. I’m sure banana cue and even fishballs had also been tenants of the store at one point, tempting pedestrians and camera enthusiasts alike.

Natikman mo na ba yung sugarcane, Niel?

Hindi pa.

Gusto mo?

Ayaw.” (After all, it was green. It looked like a veggie, never mind the “sugar” part)

And then (my curiosity got the better of me), “Ano ba yun, Papa? Sarap? Sige.”

First sip and it was love. I looked at my Dad, my face conveying a mixture of glee and shock. How was it possible that something so ticklishly amazing could come out of a plain-looking green tubo? I was stunned not only by how sweet it was but also by how unimaginably refreshed my throat felt after one gulp. This was definitely better than Coca Cola and it sure was worth the lengthy walk and the long wait. From that day onwards, I made sure to have my Dad buy me a cup whenever we would pass by the Ongpin arch, to the point that I got tired of it and had him stop buying me one. But eventually, I’d come around and start craving for a cool cup again.

This, as well as other stories, confirms how everything my Dad did was just tinged with magic. Whenever I would try to grasp memories of the man, I would be reminded of him by the little things he left me with. No, they are not material gifts, a great inheritance nor a precious heirloom, but rather a way of looking at things; of experiencing them. That humid afternoon in Ongpin, I would be discovering a new favorite drink; one I’d be having a lifetime love affair with. And in a sense, I owe this great fondness for sugarcane to him. Maybe the fact that he made me endure the thirst and heat made that first sip an extraordinarily sweet one because, come to think of it, never had sugarcane tasted as good as it did that afternoon, almost two decades ago.

Sunday, June 08, 2008

missing the oyeks

found an old family photo while clearing my lappy-clutter. taken during one of our clan dinners. we would have these spontaneous get togethers when, i.e., someone comes home, somebody's turned a year older, or someone's about to go away (again).

of my cousins, at least 3 of us are working overseas. there's debbie (standing, 5th person from the left) who's in taiwan, alex (standing behind me, 2nd person from the right) who's in the US, and me. me-ann and jojo (couple in black, beside debbie) met and got married in the states but has since come back because they decided it's better to raise their family in the Philippines. they're dad and mom to 2 of my prettiest nieces, too -- lauren (the girl debbie's carrying) and nicole (front, seated, in white).

three of our cousins (jeffrey, julie and sallie) have gotten married and permanently relocated abroad -- in Canada, Russia, and San Francisco, repsectively. come to think of it, parang coming-of-age ritual samin ang paglalayag. must be our inner migrants (the o'yek patriarch and matriarch came from china).

since this photo, two babies have been added and the rest have been growing. (& i'm missing it! shets.)

*note to self: i looked so much thinner here! there goes my next hair-goal.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

sleeplessness is a bitch and nightmare, its accomplice

On my previous blog post, I complained about badly wanting to go home. But I also said when I wake up the next morning, I'd probably be telling myself that "things are still okay and I should hang on until October because, hey, it'll be here before I even know it."

But this morning, there was no logical wake up moment because last night there was no sleep. Imagine lying in bed at 12 and 4 hours later, you're still there, wide awake. Tried counting sheep, counting months, counting every option I have -- but that usually never works anyway. It just wastes away precious minutes. San napunta ang oras? Nakahiga lang ako, and then, poof! 4 am na.

Somewhere between 12 and 4, I did the usual -- turned on the TV, tuned in to CNN, waiting for it to lull me to sleep. But nope. My CNN wasn't cooperating. If anything, the recent environmental tragedies - the Myanmar cyclone, the China earthquake - just made me more restless and paranoid.

---

A week ago, I had a nightmare. I dreamt I was in a big old house with lots of room. And in each room was a different personal terror. In Room A, my 2 aunts were lying side-by-side. One of them has been sick for a long time and in my dream, this aunt looked very sallow and was reed thin. I came up to her and touched her arms, almost skeletal, and the skin I touched was papel de hapon thin, really delicate, with the translucent color of onion paper. She didn't say a word and I coudn't make out the usual kind expression on her face.

Two other rooms held 2 different terrors, both of which seem a bit silly now. One had a friend I was hoping would offer comfort (I just came from the scary room), but the friend laughed at me instead. The third room had one of my junior high learner matched up with this high level boy with a British accent. And I had no idea how/what to teach them. And all throughout the dream, as I ran from room to room, I was frantically searching for my Dad. I was so sure he was still alive. But I couldn't find him anywhere. Later on, I would find out he died but nobody told me.

---

If something terrible should happen in Quezon City or Metro Manila, do I want to be here, away from everyone? Nope. I'd rather be buried alive, swallowed by the Earth, or drown with the rest of you rather than have the more "fortunate" option of escaping tragedy. Likewise, if something tragic should happen to this place, I don't want to be part of the body count.

---

Last week, I almost snapped at a low level student. And it made feel really bad because she's really cute and usually sweet. In the past, even though it was kind of a challenge to teach her, I'd usually be up to the task. Maybe I was more impatient than usual that day. I think that day in class I was more attuned to my needs and wants at the moment than her then-present need to learn English. I suck.

I have this theory that for teachers to be able to teach well in class, they should completely not listen to themselves and instead, like a mother beast, listen, observe, and be fully attuned to what their students are saying and not saying.

---

Lately, I've been feeling as if I'm just going through the motions beybeh. Sleepwalking through the weekdays, if you may. Sabi ni queerestofthequeer, she misses her self. Ako, I just miss my friends. I've been alone for too long now. A fortnight ago, I was chatting with Gwen, and out of the blue, we talked about colors. I complimented her recent photography work, saying the colors on her photos were as happy as an array of watercolor chips. And then she responded by saying how she thinks vibrant reds and greens just blend so well with the Antipolo sun. and then I remember how I used to have all these color talks with my artist friends. One of them, an architect/photographer, would tell me how the color blue attracts mosquitoes. And how does he know, you ask? Well, he knows because he observed it. "That's why you shouldn't wear blue if you're the type who always gets bitten by mosquitoes." I direly need these color talks.

---

And yeah, part of the sadness is the feeling that I've mostly milked this experience for what it's worth already. domesticated? check. spent time with mom? check. (feeling ko nga nagsasawa na sya sakin. :p) End of this month, Manyel-in-Japan is turning 10 months. She has somehow fought off homesickness. Loneliness kicks in with the realization that there's nothing much to look forward to anymore.

(well, there is. pero parang malaking balakid ang work. :p)

Monday, May 12, 2008

if i could just stop considering EVERY little thing

i will quit and take that early flight home.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

gadget crush: creative zen

why it's more attractive than the ipod (to me at least): long time mp3 crush, ipod nano, requires installation of iTunes, which, according to one of Kjwankitty's previous blog entry, can be such a headache when you're reinstalling your personal workhorse of a computer. so creative zen's windows drag and drop feature is a big come on. i just want compact music-on-the-go (naks, "music on the go" -- how yuppy does that sound?), not something that would make my laptop's life even more complicated.

Not only does the Creative Zen have add-ons like an fm radio, a voice recorder, and video playback, it also boasts of having an expandable SD Card slot and a sleep timer! And I'm a sucker for sleep timers! I go to sleep with the TV on (a necessity when the person living above you fancies exercising in the dead of night) and have, for countless times, wished my radio has a similar sleep timer function.

does anyone own one? someone you know owns one? how is it? (would really appreciate personal reviews.)

IPod vs. Creative - let's slug it out!

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

i eat like a truck driver.

seriously, nyel. you start eating at 12.10 and finish at 1. you wolf down in one sitting nearly all the 1 takal of rice you've supposedly alloted for the whole day! you should listen to your mother more and stop deluding yourself: cook 2 takals/day instead.

oh, and maybe it's not a good idea to chat while you eat. thinking ups your demand for carbo and makes you lose count. your math skills have become rusty, remember?

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it's 1:05 now. excuse yourself and make that mochi for dessert.







Wednesday, March 12, 2008

scatterbrained.

ngrrgnekrnkfljsnlekrnlekfmlskdnrienklmfne.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

freaky first world - scars, limbs, and regrets

One

In Fukui, there's someone (could be one person, could be a gang of psychos) walking around victimizing innocent pedestrians. The crime: slashing the poor person's face and leaving permanent scars.

The first reported incident actually happened at the big park near my house (not the small one in my photos). I actually went there to jog by my lonesome a week before said incident.

Seriously scaring the hell out of me. Unlike the psychopath stories from pasig, this one's actually true.

Recently, the man struck again -- inside a mall! He was caught (of course), but there could be others like him.

Two

A story making the headlines these days: wife kills husband. Make that physically abused and emotionally battered wife finally saying ENOUGH! And then hitting her husband with a beer bottle on the head before proceeding to chop off his husband's limbs all the while talking to a friend on the phone describing each thing she's doing.

The catch: husband and wife were married professionals. They live in a very nice apartment in Tokyo. You could say they're rich even by Japanese standards. Both are quite goodlooking and young (29 and 31 y.o.).

Cultural tidbit: in Japan, they don't even perform organ transplants because it's against their religion. So I wonder how the chop-chop act makes the issue of body defilement worse.

Three

Early this morning, we were talking about regrets.

And one student tells this story:

A son of a family acquaintance holds a degree in Architecture. He graduated from Kyodai University (Kyoto University), one of the bestuniversities here (second only to Tokyo University, they say). Thing is, he wanted to change his career path and become a doctor. He was bent on studying medicine at Kyodai so he persistently took the examinations. He didn't pass the first time. Nor did he make it the 2nd time. Not even the 3rd.

Exam results were released the other day on the internet. Yesterday, poor guy hanged himself.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

TutoK:2talk Creative Convergence -- music, poetry, live art, art-speak, impromptus, installations, atbp.

(Repost from Frannie's site. Pupuntahan ko to if I were there. )

Hey everyone, you're all invited to

TutoK:2talk
Creative Convergence February 26-29, 2008
@ SAMBALIKHAAN grounds (pls refer to map)


2Talk Creative Convergence happens this February
National Arts Month 2008.

Music, poetry, live art, impromptus, installations,
grafitti, and video-- all happening at Sambalikhaan
from February 27 to 29.

tutoK:2talk creative convergence February 26-29, 2008


bulong
a prelude to TUTOK:2TALK creative convergence

organize by bulungan collective

The Rooftop, Metropolitan Tower
1746 Mabini Street, Malate, Manila
February 16, 2008, 8:00pm-12:00mn


opening night: tutok kargado
tutoK takes on charged works and responses to the gallery collection

Jose Tence Ruiz
Buen Calubayan
Mideo M. Cruz
Noel Soler Cuizon
Boy Dominguez
Alfred Esquillo, Jr.
Egai Talusan Fernandez
Karen Ocampo Flores
Emmanuel Garibay
J Pacena II
Kirby Roxas
Don Salubayba
Mark Ramsel Salvatus III

Curated by Jose Tence Ruiz

Ateneo Art Gallery,
Rizal Library, Ateneo de Manila University,
Loyola Heights , Quezon City
February 26, 2008, 6:30 p.m.


bull session
Round table discussion on globalization and altered/alternative aesthetics. Featuring local and visiting artists.

Facilitated by Eileen Legaspi-Ramirez

Sambalikhaan, Asian Institute for Liturgy and Music (AILM)
275 E. Rodriguez Avenue, Quezon City
February 27, 2008, 3:00 to 6:00pm

surfacing
tarps and photos: essaying our
decaperacidos

Estan Cabigas
Enrimand "Manman" Dejeto
Kenneth Guda
Diana Moraleda
Sandino Nartea
Judy Pasimio
Joseph Purugganan
Ilang-Ilang Quijano
Candice Anne Reyes
Leonard Reyes
Dennis Rito
Marc Talampas
Jenny Tañedo
Alanah Torralba

Curated by Nino Tagaro and Jes Aznar

Sambalikhaan Grounds
February 27-29, 2008


environmental state
installation projects on mental/ecological states

Clint Catalan
Rainer Cruz
Don Dalmacio
Dondi Fernandez
Enteng and Dessa Laput
Leeroy New
Leobensant Marquez
Marlon And Kelly Paraganas
Niel Pasilan
Alma Quinto
Oliver Ramos
Sawsawan
Paul Sena
Angelo Suarez
Wire Tuazon
Ugat-LAHI
Costantino Zicarelli

Curated by Buen Calubayan

Sambalikhaan Grounds
February 27-28, 2008


visual pollution
an infestation of (de)synthesized video installations

Anino Shadow Play Collective
Artist Arrest Movement
Elvert de la Cruz Bañares
Sigfried Barros-Sanchez
Ramon Bautista
Herbert Commendador
Khavn Dela Cruz
Ivan Despi
Tad Ermitaño
Ging Flores
Lea Lim
Treb Monteras II
Jet Pascua
RA Rivera
Jemina Rodriguez
Jun Sabayton
Rights
Southern Tagalog Exposure
Syke Dolero

Curated by J Pacena II

Sambalikhaan Grounds
February 28-29, 2008

common spot
spot-on urban graffiti invades idyllic setting

Pilipinas Street Plan (Philippines)
Killer Gerbil (Singapore)
Gene Pendon (Canada)
Ebliss (Malaysia)
BCBrutta (Spain)

Curated by Mark Ramsel Salvatus III

Sambalikhaan Grounds
February 28-29, 2008


surf plus shop
artists’ knickknacks on parade: art, food, books, etc.
Just bring ur stuff!

Sambalikhaan Grounds
February 28-29, 2008


authorize extremist
live art presentations by local and visiting artists

Buen Calubayan (Manila Philippines)
Nick Aca (Cagayan de Oro Philippines)
Ioana Gergescu (Quebec Canada)
Jef Carnay (Manila Philippines)
Noel Cuizon (Manila Philippines)
Soni Kum (Seoul Korea)
Shannon Cochrane (Ontario Canada)
Arai Shin-ichi (Tokyo Japan)
Mideo M Cruz (Manila Philippines)

Curated by Racquel de Loyola

Sambalikhaan grounds
February 28, 2008 3:00 to 9:00 pm


impromptus
open mike for all sorts of live and livid actions

Curated by Jef Carnay

Sambalikhaan grounds
February 29, 2008, 3:00 to 6:00pm


pasakalye
musicians feting all artists in an acoustic ensemble

Cynthia Alexander
Bobby Balingit
Lolita Carbon
Jess Santiago
Skarlet
Syke Dolero
Aya Yuson

Curated by JL Burgos and Mavi Deocampo

Sambalikhaan Amphitheatre
February 29, 2008 7:00 to 9:00pm

a grown-up finds herself with nothing better to do

grabbed from marco the boyfriend:

Place an X beside the item that applies to you, and add them up. The sum will be your supposed mental age.

[] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] I keep track of dates using a calendar....
[] own more than one credit card....
[] I know how to change the oil in my car.
[x] I can do my own laundry.
[x] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself.
[x] I think politics are exciting.
[x] I balance my checkbook.

Total: 6

[x] I show up for school/college/work every day early.
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse. (Plus, I have a stash in my office teacher desk and one at home, too.)
[] I've never gotten a detention. (wala namang detention sa pilipinas, anubuh!)
[] I have never smoked a cigarette. (Make that 404 sticks to date.)
[] I have never gotten completely trashed.
[] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once. (hey, a manyel birthday is a manyel holiday!)
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I watch talk shows.
[x] I know what "credibility" means without looking it up.
[x] I drink coffee at least once a week. (More like twice a day at least.)

Total: 6

[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 10 in another language. (Three other languages, actually.)
[x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it. (Eventually.)
[] I can mow the lawn. (If I had a lawn.)
[x] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study only when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at work.
[] I remember to feed my pets/child.

Total: 6

[x] I can spell "experience" without looking it up.
[] I work out on a regular basis.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[] The people at Starbucks know me by name.
[] My favorite kind of food is take out.
[x] I have gained weight since high school.

[x] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] I can type quickly.

Total: 7

[x] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour. (since living in gray Fukui, I've had my fair share of necessary weather-talk and weather-greet)
[] My only friends are from my place of employment. (heck, no!)
[] I have been to a tupperware party. (How 70's, far out! Probably a cup and saucer-party in the future)
[] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[] I have more bills than I can pay.
[
] Almost all my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a while.
[x] i can read a book and actually finish it. (

Total: 4

Nyel's mental age: 29 (I'm OLD! Sh*t.)

Friday, January 18, 2008

namimiss ko kasi kayo

(and because i'm too stubborn to sleep)

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Wednesday, January 16, 2008

airavyou, yUPiiii! (bumigay na rin)


Sige na nga, join the bandwagon. Happy birthday, UP dearest!


1. Student number?
00-57906

2. College?
CSSP
CAL

3. Course?
BA Sociology, then
BA Art Studies, then
MA Art History (awol, ohno)

4. Nag-shift ka ba o na-kickout?
Nag-transfer

5. Saan ka kumuha ng UPCAT?
Sa BS Chem


6. Favorite GE subject?
Kom 2 (unang Uno ever :D and i heart Sir Leo Zafra), Hum 1 and Comm 3


7. Favorite PE?
Toss between Fencing and Running. Nag-bowling (duckpin) din ako kaya lang hopeless yata ako sa bowling.


8. Saan ka nag-aabang ng hot girls/guys sa UP?
(Yak, nakakahiya.) Sa Engg o kaya sa Arki. Well, i did have valid reasons for going to the Arki lib... (ay, tsaka hindi naman pala successful ang hot guy hunting ko.haha)


9. Favorite prof(s)
Madami!
Leo Zafra (isa sya sa mga rason bat ako lumipat ng KAL! :D)
Eloi Hernandez, May Datuin, Robert Paulino
From the GE classes I took, magagaling din sina May Jurilla (did i get her name right?) and Jun Obilye


10. Pinaka-ayaw na GE subject.
NatSci. hopeless ako sa science pero fun yung klase ni Sir Obilye.


11. Kumuha ka ba ng Wed or Sat classes?
Yep, pumapasok ako ng Wednesdays para libre na yung mondays/thursdays ko. :D


12. Nakapag-field trip ka ba?
Unfortunately, hindi. Kami yung nadamay sa field trip ban.


13. Naging CS ka na ba or US sa UP?
Yep. Champion crammer, yeah.


14. Ano ang Org/Frat/Soro mo?
Praxis, Kalinangan, Quill (na parang hindi naman ako seryosong member, hehe), SAPUL (okay, this one's kinda strange - block handler kasi namin sila), Stand-UP. :)


15. Saan ka tumatambay palagi?
Iba't-iba e. Nung 2nd year kami, sa Praxis tambayan lagi. Nung 3rd year, sa Kalinangan yata. Nung 4th year, sa Vinzon's dahil sa USC atsaka sa Quill dahil kay Marco. :)


16. Dorm, Boarding house, o Bahay?
Bahay.
*Sumubok akong mag-boarding house kaya lang di ako tumagal ng higit isang buwan. Owing to my (non-existent) cooking skills, napurga ako sa kakakain ng Pansit Canton.


17. Kung walang UPCAT test at malaya kang nakapili ng kurso mo sa UP, ano yun (Given ang mentality mo nung HS ka)?
BroadComm o kaya Film


18. Sino ang pinaka-una mong nakilala sa UP?
Si Cristine from Psych and si Cristy Hapal, blockmate


19. First play na napanood mo sa UP?
Ooops, forgot.


20. Name the 5 most conyo orgs in UP
JMA? Lingua Franca? :p


21. Name 5 of the coolest orgs/frats/soro in UP.
Praxis, Quill and Kalinangan. :p


22. May frat/soro bang nag-recruit sa yo?
wala. haha. i guess hindi ako sorority type.


23. Saan ka madalas mag-lunch?
Beach House! (hanggang ngayon, sa beach house pa din)

24. Masaya ba sa UP?
Oo naman. Kaya ako pumasok sa UP kasi ang impression ko, lahat ng tao sa UP party mode pero matatalino pa rin. (nadiscover ko na mindset lang pala yung pagiging party. kailangan palang mag-aral. :p)


25. Nakasama ka na ba sa rally?
Yepyep.


26. Ilang beses ka bumoto sa Student Council
Lahat yata ng botohan nung undergrad ako + yung wayward MA years ko.


27. Name at least 5 leftist groups in UP
STAND-UP, Anakbayan, LFS (...)


28. Pinangarap mo rin bang mag-laude nung freshman ka?
Oo. :D Naging motivation ko ngang mag-aral kasi lahat ng friends ko nag-CS ako lang hindi. :p


29. Kanino ka pinaka-patay sa UP?
Kagaya ng halos lahat ng sumagot nito, hindi ko sasabihin! Matagaaaaal na panahon na yun. ;)


30. Kung di ka UP, anong school ka?
Ateneo
(kung afford lang namin nun o kaya kung na-approve yung scholarship ko - buti na lang hindi. )

Saturday, January 12, 2008

...but your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

What Maniel Grace Means
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.



You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.